Forget Me NOT
I've said it before, and I'll say it again; social media is a bitch. It sucks you into the lives of others, with the potential to make you forget to live, appreciate & love your own.
At the end of the day, many social media platforms are just that; platforms to boost sales, income, trends; very, very clever and effective marketing tools. Feeds are curated to give the impression of a glamourous and exciting life, when the reality is usually that the person behind I captions are living quite a lonely life. Yes, they may have more clothes and shoes than they can count, but does this bring happiness? For a moment maybe, when the courier rings the doorbell; when the packaging is in tatters around you, but realistically, has is changed anything? Added any substance? No.
I fell foul of this false advertising; fell into trying to create a world which was not my own- morphing into a person I do not want to be. I was becoming greedy, selfish, impatient and above all, ugly.
Style is everything you are, not just the clothes you wear. The most aesthetically pleasing person will still be ugly if their personality is. It's been tough to be reminded of this, but I am so happy to have my feet firmly back on my ground. In our world.
"You cannot polish a turd."
(That saying had never resonated with me until a few days ago).
In short, I am feeling polished, so it seems that I caught myself in time - thank god. I don't think I have maintained or handled that other me for too long. I mean I irritate myself at the best of times, but I was beginning to reach a whole new level. Vanity, greed and being selfish is draining.
Anyway; I'm feeling motivated, determined, and almost as though a cloud has lifted. And never plan on losing sight of my incredibly happy, fun and love filled life ever ever again.